What happened in my life in 2014:
- My grandmother passed away and I felt extreme guilt for not spending enough time with her during the past few years
- My older sister, whom I was closest to in this house/family, migrated to Canada and I've been feeling so lonely
- Tirelessly looked for a job for several months
- Cried when i was already scared and almost hopeless about my future
But the following also happened:
- I found a job (but I will only get to officially start next week) after pushing myself relentlessly all the time
- I became more mature
- I'm back to my strong and resilient self whom I somehow lost during the past few years
- I've learned to stop being so angry about almost everything
- and instead, I started reminding myself that there's a good purpose behind every happening
- I'm now more optimistic
- and happier
- My relationship with my mother is getting better too!
- My relationship with my whole family, actually
- Overall, I now see myself changing for the better :)
What I want to say is that there is HOPE. I'm not really proud to say this but I've had suicidal thoughts everyday for the past few years and was in a really dark place in my life. But I helped myself and accepted the help other people gave me, and here I am. I'm not saying that I'm 100% great and happy already, but I'm on my way there.
Let's never give up! :)
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